After a major insight it is of course necessary to change plans.
As Blue Devil said in his last comment I have a problem that should be easy to correct.
A doctor of the dutch AMC (Amsterdam Medical Center), a meritorious chessplayer himself, found endorfines in the neural system and (nor)adrenalin in the paraventricular hypothalamus of chessplayers who died during a game. He said the time trouble-addicted died in fact by an overdose. His assitant added: "you sniff, you smoke, you booze, you play chess, it's all the same."
Asked about the same he said: "forms of addiction, and afraid of kick off symptoms. It's all very nice but in the end it kills you."
I don't believe I'm addicted to time trouble so kick off symptoms shouldn't be the problem.
But I have to admit I'm addicted to heavy thinking.
There are some difficulties though.
The first is the problem of awareness. If I'm simply NOT AWARE of the flow of time, it is not easy to intervene.
Last game I was very alert of my use of time. I was indeed aware that I was using too much time and EVEN THEN it was impossible to intervene.
An easy plan did not "pop up" immediately but had to be created with effort.
So that indicates the direction of the solution. I decided to pick up the Personal Chesstrainer again. PCT has a strategical module with 720 positional problems. Starting out with simple one-movers. "occupy the file", "centralize the knight" and the like.
Let's see if this helps to solve the problem of time consuming in quiet positions.
For completeness I have to say I stopped my endgame study with PCT. "I stopped" sounds rather active and deliberate. It was more "it vanished due to lack of energy". Studying endgames is a typical intellectual decision, not supported by emotion. Lack of emotion means lack of energy. This is just not the right moment to study endgames. If I solve my middlegame problems I will reach an endgame much more often. That will help endgame study. For now I focus at simple middlegame positional moves.
Within the next week I will reach the 70,000 mark at CTS. That means that I have repeated the problem window of 10,000 consecutive problems 7 times at average. I have not decided yet what to do after that. I have looked at problems that are rated 1900. Those still baffle me. I'm experimenting with doing the same problem window again, but now focussing on an accuracy of 95% in stead of 80%.
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