But the objective analysis of my games has shown the real state of matters. I talked to my coach about it and he adviced to stop playing against two opponents: my opponent and the clock. Since I cannot win from the clock.
I already had seen that I spilled a lot of time for no reason so I simply decided to stop with that. Since then I played 4 games against players with 1985, 1781, 1880 and 1885 and I scored 2+ 2= 0- (3 out 4). Being no longer in time trouble I didn't spill at least 1 whole point, conservatively estimated. In general I still had 20 - 40 minutes on the clock when the game ended. Even two of my opponents came into time trouble themselves, something that has never happened before. I had two games >45 moves. Which is extraordinary, since usually I'm so in time trouble at move 35 that I give the game or win away.
With every move I ask myself "can I decide between the different moves by calculation?". If not, I simply choose the most logical move and let my opponent be the judge. It proofs that I can simply skip my usual thoughts without having a bad effect on my game. It are irrelevant thoughts for the position.
Further analysis of my games has revealed the following three areas of improvement:
- Time trouble.
- Positions where I don't know how to continue.
- Position where I see two ways to continue but can't judge which one is better.
Area two: I hope that my coach can put me on track here. Usually I offer a draw here since I don't have time to play it out anyway.
Area three: just play and get feedback.