The art of losing

 Since 2.5 years I'm reinventing my chess. The first 23 years, while I was inventing how adult learning works,  there was no time for that.

I'm essentially building a framework that guides my thoughts. That framework is based on a few standard scenarios and the accompanying absorbed patterns. Before I can absorb the patterns, I must first invent the scenarios. That is pretty time consuming, and it takes a lot of trial and error in my games. 

If you play according an idea which in itself is correct, that doesn't mean that you win the game. Say, your idea is to get the bishop pair, and you get it, then that is a complete success. If you don't know how to use the bishop pair, you will still lose the game though.

Hence you must be prepared to lose a lot. Most of the time even more than you are used to when you played without these ideas.

But that is the price for progress. So you better embrace losing. Which I do. It is not simple when I raised expectations with my big mouth by family and friends. I managed to keep my mouth shut for 23 years. But lately, I tell people what I'm up to, every now and then.

So I have a lot of explaining to do, why I lose more games than I used to and why that is a good thing. Enfin, it is too late to shut my mouth now.